strung curiosity

i asked what should i do and he replied do whatever you want and i smirked, if he only knew
all the things i wanted
to do
right that moment
but now in this moment
whatever you want
whatever,
but it's impossible
all the wants and that's why they are wanting
wanted
lacking
longing
just me
longing
for all the impossible things
what else is worth craving like this? to crave a doable thing
that around the corner anything
the on your doorstep normality
or any old usual turn of event thing

what would that get you?

of course wanting impossible things gets you
nowhere
either.