the meaning of (embodied)

sometimes it's so easy not to care and other times it can be impossible not to care
and all the caring doesn't know where to go or how to direct itself so you mope and you mope and you fight the urge to throw things and

breathe.

i am..

i feel...

but wait before that i--
i emote. i exist. this body, those neurons, underpinning all the understanding while being so mysteriously beyond it at the same time... without this we wouldn't know anything.

without this would there be anything to know?

tools. products. both.
alive and dead, living and dying, oversimplifying every moment, every set of moments. dull ache. begrudged gratitude. emphasis here, stress there, sighing and tears or hunger.
criss crossed. star crossed.
the great unfortunated. doom. blame.
stretch. half-bound. repaint your toenails or go for a walk.
there are no true fairy tales.