insatiable

you can't not show up--you're already here.

am I?
there might be pieces missing. untethered unaccounted
undiscovered

what am I expecting that I don't seem to have?
are they real things, all these things I want?

or is wanting real things too small, too easy?

there might be long lost halves
other, outer

positions poisons precariousity up against those curtains this paisley trickling not slow enough not time enough open wide enough

sliding

gathering them back in
negotiating
floundering

they can't not show up-- they're already here, too.

different 'here's though.
always.