(indebted)

the world needs rocking; what was it he said? the cost...
if I could snapshot that sentence just as it came from his mouth
just as my eyes widened and focused, just as the whole room limped into perfect, frightening clarity..
if that moment could just
stay
for me to confront and re-confront
and walk around ponderingly
and digest in thorough, fearless manner

the cost
I need to think about that, don't I? the costs
and if the costs are what bind this
to that
and me
to this
and everyone
to
if that's a reason...
even a small part of the reason?
well I don't think and I'm easily distracted and no moment will stay but you can always rehash. you can always pretend... to go back
hungry. wishing. be in this, and be willing, and trust!
it will rock itself
and you will hold on.
there's no way to mess it up. reason has nothing
nothing to do.
ringing around and around
the cost. the cost of being excluded. the cost of being excluded is too high.
unpayable.